Friday, October 21, 2011

My Prayer

Today as I was sitting and playing the piano I came across this hymn and the words just hit me like a hammer and as I played and sang I could not help from crying.

Spirit of God, Descend Upon My Heart

Spirit of God, descend upon my heart;
Wean it from earth, through all its pulses move;
Stoop to my weakness, mighty as Thou art,
And make me love Thee as I ought to love.

Hast Thou not bid us love Thee, God and King?
All, all Thine own, soul, heart and strength and mind;
I see Thy cross--there teach my heart to cling:
O let me seek Thee, and O let me find.

Teach me to feel that Thou art always nigh;
Teach me the struggles of the soul to bear,
To check the rising doubt, the rebel sigh;
Teach me the patience of unanswered prayer.

Teach me to love Thee as Thine angels love,
One holy passion filling all my frame;
The baptism of the heav'n descended Dove,
My heart an altar, and Thy love the flame.

Monday, October 17, 2011

First Drill/RSP

Well, Josiah had his first drill (or as they call it right now, RSP) this weekend.  And he loved it.  It was certainly different to see my husband come home in a military uniform.  It will take a while for me to get used to seeing him in it.  The kids think it is great, and they talk about the army and military all the time now.

For those of you who care here is video of what Josiah will be doing in the National Guard

When he has his December drill they have family day, and I get to go and spend the day with him.  I am pretty excited because I love seeing what Josiah is doing and what the places look like where he is.

Church was a bit of a challenge by myself with the 3 kids, but nothing that I cannot handle.  We definitely have work to do, but I found out that I can do it and it is not so bad.

I praise God that he has been changing my attitude about Josiah joining the National Guard.  Sure I know it will not be easy, but I am actually looking forward to the challenge, and I just want to please God in all I do.  I realize that I am responsible for myself and how I act, and I want to please God even if I am in a situation that is far from easy.  I do not want to have any regrets.

I am starting to get more excited about all of this, not to say that I do not still have moments of not liking it.

I just want to say thank you to all the military wives out there.  I am beginning to realize the sacrifices that they have to make are huge and they have to be pretty unselfish.  Thank you.

God bless!!